i constantly feel that i need to see him more than he needs to
see me. its extremely upsetting

i was in such a wonderful mood in the morning because today is
his day off and i was hoping to spend some time with him today. but he seems to
be sitting home all day and not offering me anything. i mean not asking me to
go out or go to the park or hang out.

i dont understand. its like ok we spent too much time together
last week, so lets take a break frfom each other this week. this is my perception
of what's going on and it upsets me.

but i dont know if thats true, but i think so. Otherwise i dont
understand why.

it sucks becuase one day im on the cloud nine and next day i
feel very crappy.

i need him to be more specific when he will see me next time. i
dont understand how hard is it to understand and why cant he just tell me that.

like - i will be busy tomorrow, but lets see each other on
thursday. that would work just fine with me. but this unknowingness is killing
me. i hate it and its not working for me.