dolgo ne pisala.
vremeni net. well, there is plenty of time in my hands but i guess i've had other things to do. i even think that it would be better, much better, for me to spend time here that doing whaever i was. i think that i will figure things out. everything will be fine. this month probably is not the best month in my life, but i have hope that i'll be fine. if God won't leave me. i'm praying he didn't. of course i'm really bad at it, but it comes from my heart, and maybe he'll forgive me.
i have some plans on my mind. first is to go to the doctor's and get myself as healthy as it is possible, because this condition now is bad. really bad. i'm scared . a lot. i know there is nothing i can do now, but hoping it will go away. but still i'll try to help to prevent it in the future so it won't come back.
secondly - car.
third - i want to go away with him. only us and nobody else. i hope i will make it happen.
...Help me. PLease.